Today June 26th 2013 I feel afraid, afraid of what's to come next in my life. I've been through so much in my childhood, young adulthood and parenthood. I AM TIRED!!! TIRED of going through the pain and hurt of being abuse emotionally, physically, sexually, and mentally. I AM TIRED of letting my children down. I AM MAD at myself for allowing the things that have taken place in thier lives and NO MORE!! I AM TIRED of being AFRAID AND SCARED of him. I don't want to be SCARED of him. He put FEAR in me. You know my youngest daughter said to me today that she's not SCARED of him anymore and that made me feel good. I don't know if it was the best thing for me to say to her that I AM SCARED of him.
Today I filed a restraining order and I have to go back to court tomorrow 6/27/13.
